I participated in 3 big music events during November – December 2017. The
first one was from October 30th to November the 1st. It was called
"Bimbingan Teknis Akutalisasi Potensi Anak Melalui Media Musik Dan
Dongeng" which is shortened to "Bimtek." The second event was my
music school’s year-end performance and the third event was a music competition.
Bimtek was held by kemendikbud (Kementerian Pendidikan dan Kebudayaan),
Indonesia's ministry of education. They picked teenagers under the age of 18
from each province of Indonesia who have interest in music and storytelling to
create positive music and stories for other kids and teenagers. This year,
there were around 87 participants from 47 provinces. I was the representative
from Banten for the music part.
It was supposed to be interesting meeting teenagers from almost all over
Indonesia, but I found that it's not exactly easy to make new acquaintances. On
my first day there in the morning, after registering myself, I was asked to
wait with the others in the dining area. As I entered the area, I saw some of
the other participants sitting in small groups. I didn't know which group to join
as I don’t know anybody so I sat on an empty table.
I took out my math exercises to work on, hoping that no one will come up
to me and talk; but at the same time I'd like to make friends with the others.
Half an hour later 2 older girls came up to me and asked if the seat in front
of me is empty. I said yes. After introducing ourselves, the two girls talked
to each other while I continued with my maths. They went to the same college
and chatted about people they know, their college, common interests, etc. I
tried to join in the conversation, but I didn't find anything that I can relate
to, so I just stayed quiet. Now that I think about it, I think I didn't put
enough effort into trying to make a decent conversation.
Long before this event, one of the event organiser put the participants
and mentors into a Whatsapp group. My mom informed that she was to be put into
the group in my place because there's something wrong with my Whatsapp. Neither
my Mom nor I checked the group frequently, so I thought that the other
participants weren't talking much.
2 tables on my left one of the small groups became bigger as more
participants arrived. At a glance, they were talking and laughing as if they
already knew each other. I thought that the participants made another Whatsapp
group without the adults, just for themselves. As my mom already informed the
group the event organisers made that she was representing me, I thought that
they didn't invite me into the group because of that. This made me think that
the group 2 tables on my left already knew each other and were talking like
close friends. This made me felt left out.
I paid more attention when more participants arrived to the 2 tables on
my left. That table is the most crowded one now. They introduced themselves and
get to know each other as if they never met before. This made me doubt my
theory before about how they looked so friendly to each other.
I wanted to get to know them, but isn't it weird when the girl who's
been sitting 2 tables away from you since before suddenly come up and introduce
herself at that time? Why didn't she make friends since before. So I decided
not to do it.
As it got closer to lunch some of the people from other groups
(including that group 2 tables away from me) came to my table to introduce
themselves. It was nice meeting them.
After lunch the participants were asked to meet up in a ballroom. The
MCs there asked where we came from. "Who's from Kalimantan? Who's from
Sumatra?" When they asked which participant came from Jawa Barat and which
came from Banten I was confused. So I just raised my hand when they asked the
participants from Jawa Barat :p. I come from Banten anyway.
They then asked all of use to stand up and introduce ourselves to each
other. I just stayed next to my seat while I introduce myself to any random
person that would shake my hand. The Mcs encouraged us not to just introduce
ourselves near our seats, but to move further into the crowd. I'm afraid I
didn't get too far :p.
The MCs then called those who think they can remember at least 15 people
to come up to the front and say their names. Well, I definitely didn't remember
anyone that I met in that room. 4 people went up though. I recognized them from
the place where we waited before and I guessed that they remember at least 14
because they already get to know at least 14 people there. There are more than
14 people in that 2 tables on my left.
When we were dismissed we were offered refreshments. We were asked to
meet up again later in the evening. The music section were to meet up in that
same ballroom, while the storytelling section are to meetup somewhere else.
With that much amount of spare time, I decided to take my card to my room and
take a rest there.
I shared a room with 2 other girls. One of them is Kak Ulfi, the girl who shared
the table with me before in the dining area, and another one is a year younger
than me. They both said that it took a long time for them to get their cards,
because the queue was crazy. That made me realise that I wasn't supposed to
take the card before the mentors tell us too, but anyway....
When evening came, we met up in the ballroom as scheduled. Somehow, I
felt that the atmosphere was tense. It could be because I feel pressured around
new people. I sat next to Ike, one of my roomates, who's a year younger than
me, and some friends that I made during dinnertime. I found out that Ike and me
liked several similar things, and we had fun talking about them.
The mentors broke the ice by singing us a fun song. They then asked us
to sing along. At first everyone's singing was rather quiet and shy, but then
it got louder, and those with guitars played along (we were allowed to bring
our portable instruments, and I brought my flute). The atmosphere became more
fun and friendly.
We were then put into groups, and were asked to make a yell-yell for our
group. They asked us to agree on a time and place tomorrow to make the
yell-yell. Tonight will be useless to make one, as everyone were definitely
tired. After introducing ourselves to each other and asked for contacts, we
decided on 7.30 a.m. at the canteen to make our yell-yell.
The next morning, I woke up the latest out of the three . My consequence
was: everyone bathed before me. While waiting, I prepared all my things so that
after I bath, all I have to do is pick them up and go. I wanted to be on time
because I'm afraid that my teammates would find me irresponsible. As I bathed
the last, I had less time than the others to bathe if I want to meet up on
time.
My bath was really rushed as my roomates bathed longer than I expected.
I still reached the canteen on time though. However, I was disappointed when I
reached the canteen. I tried to find my teammates who I thought were already
sitting somewhere in a group, as it's 7:30 already. I was even about to skip my
breakfast as my consequence for waking up late, but I couldn't find my group
anywhere.
I then saw one of my teammates still eating and chatting with her
friends. I was surprised, and rather hurt. Her actions showed that she was
irresponsible; she didn't respect the other group members who might had met up
and were waiting for her. I found out later though, that others did the same
like her. I didn't dare speak to her because I didn't really know her. I
thought I still had time while waiting for them to finish theirs, so I followed
Ike to take my breakfast and sit with her and some friends. I didn't eat much
as I was afraid that my teammates will soon call me to gather up; my table is next
to one of them. I had a little chat with my table mates and one of them asked
me the languages that I could speak. She then asked me to say some English
words while she recorded me. What should I say? As I had no idea of what to
say, I just answered some of their questions in English. I felt I had done a
poor job in showing my English, but anyway. That was one of the most awkward
breakfast time in my life.
After I finished breakfast, I tried to find another of my teammate, as
my next table teammate seemed busy chatting. I tried to find the one whom I
thought was pretty friendly. I did met her, and we found a table for our
discussion later. Our other teammates came after a while, and so the meeting
started.
In my opinion, the meeting didn't go well. First, we forgot that we had
to make a yell-yell, and instead made a song that kind of introduces our group.
Not all of us are active in making the song; most of us just looked confused
but they tried to get involved.
As most of us were late when starting the meeting, when we reached the
ballroom at a scheduled time our song wasn't finished. Luckily we got a fifteen
or 20 minute extra to finish it.
To break the ice (again) among us, the mentors had organised a game. We
were to stand in a circle, and a person in the middle of the circle was to say
a particular thing that some of us had. Those who had it were to move to any
space in front of that person. The last one who didn't get any space was to
replace the person in the middle. It was fun.
After each group performed their song (unfortunately, the others also
made my group's mistake) and the mentor pointing out our mistake, we were asked
to sit in a circle. One of our mentors performed a song that she composed when
she was younger. Our mentors also asked one of the participants to perform a
song that he made in his native language. All the songs performed had
meaningful meanings behind them.
We were then regrouped and this was where the fun starts! We were going
to make a song.
I'm going to continue next week as this took so long to write.